Noise is all around. How does one escape it?
Politicians, salespeople, theologies and philosophies in the name of God even, so loud, so different.
Opinions, biases in media, businesses, favoritism in all aspects, myths, truths, history, mistakes, victories, what is truth anymore?
Is truth simply becoming what benefits certain groups ideals? Reality is what you make it. Truth is what is in your heart. Is truth what makes the individual content?
Engines, sirens, talking, yelling, swearing, belittling, NOISE!
Slandering, criticizing, deceiving, NOISE!
Messages, words, images, sounds, thoughts, get nailed into our brains, faster, better, higher, quicker, -
Alleviating noise can be the best thing you can do for yourself.
Spending time in the arms of the one you love, silence (pure silence), being one with nature, with music, submerging yourself in the waters of peace. Or playing with a child who hears noise, but still pays no mind, knows nothing, cares nothing, but feeling the positive or negative vibes that radiate from everyone, and life. God Himself, gives peace. Infiltrates our spirits.
Simplicity.
Monday, October 27, 2014
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Faith Applications
Faith in God can be like the stock market. Ever evolving, and going up and down. This is how relationships can be as well, I guess it all connects. What will be seen in these next words are simply part of my journey, and explorations in the faith, and what I am finding in life through accrued wisdom by reading and learning. So I wanted to apply it to life as we know it.
I finished a great book, which some things were helpful, others I have overcome, all in all, it was good. I am a truth seeker. Always have been, always will be. I am even curious about lies, because from those you discover a hidden truth by its' origin. Deep. As a believer in Jesus, I have been zealous. I have been too open minded, I have been mediocre, I have been on many different levels. And it's not over, in my experiencing God! Nor is it for everyone reading this. From some things I discovered about myself in the last few months, I have worked on opening my mind, expanding my understanding, while maintaining my stance, and developing where I stand on different things regarding politics, morality, values, and yes even spirituality.
Lately I have felt as if God is way up high on a cloud, drinking pina coladas, and listening to Bob Marley, Don Ho, and IZ. I know better, and that's just the frustrating aspect, is that my faith has been stronger than it is now. Turning to explore other faiths, they have not been consistent. For example, if Buddhism believes in karma, karma is scary to me, but with Jesus it does not exist, other than the "do to others as you wish to be done to you" teaching. At the same time, I could not, and still cannot understand how suffering should be a part of Christian life, why would God want us to suffer?
Well, I am happy to say that from what I gathered it may not be that He intends for us to suffer, yet in the suffering He gets us out of, so we can be followers... But not in a narcissistic way. The affairs of society and the world which cause suffering, are all done by imperfect human beings. God gave us free will. Yet He will never leave or forsake us.
One thing that is hard, sometimes (I) and many believers TRY to please God, be it whether it's to judge others to feel in good standing with God, or purposefully putting themselves down to be "humble" before others and God, or just feeling like you cannot be good enough for God. I guess I am realizing that all of these things are done subconsciously, known as my iniquities. But it can also purposefully be done. It's just human for us to do that.
Many of this stems from early scars from childhood, and teen years as well. Subliminal messages given to young women and men to live up to a certain image or standard, do certain activities, or be talented in certain hobbies or skills.
What I am finding is that it is all relative. It is all, it's not a game, or about "falling into sin" or making the "wrong" choice. It is, however, fulfillment, happiness, joy, and having a heart for God. It is very interesting how we tend to all have an image of God, I do not believe there is a wrong image of who God is, but I do believe God is a lot different than we can imagine to be.
I finished a great book, which some things were helpful, others I have overcome, all in all, it was good. I am a truth seeker. Always have been, always will be. I am even curious about lies, because from those you discover a hidden truth by its' origin. Deep. As a believer in Jesus, I have been zealous. I have been too open minded, I have been mediocre, I have been on many different levels. And it's not over, in my experiencing God! Nor is it for everyone reading this. From some things I discovered about myself in the last few months, I have worked on opening my mind, expanding my understanding, while maintaining my stance, and developing where I stand on different things regarding politics, morality, values, and yes even spirituality.
Lately I have felt as if God is way up high on a cloud, drinking pina coladas, and listening to Bob Marley, Don Ho, and IZ. I know better, and that's just the frustrating aspect, is that my faith has been stronger than it is now. Turning to explore other faiths, they have not been consistent. For example, if Buddhism believes in karma, karma is scary to me, but with Jesus it does not exist, other than the "do to others as you wish to be done to you" teaching. At the same time, I could not, and still cannot understand how suffering should be a part of Christian life, why would God want us to suffer?
Well, I am happy to say that from what I gathered it may not be that He intends for us to suffer, yet in the suffering He gets us out of, so we can be followers... But not in a narcissistic way. The affairs of society and the world which cause suffering, are all done by imperfect human beings. God gave us free will. Yet He will never leave or forsake us.
One thing that is hard, sometimes (I) and many believers TRY to please God, be it whether it's to judge others to feel in good standing with God, or purposefully putting themselves down to be "humble" before others and God, or just feeling like you cannot be good enough for God. I guess I am realizing that all of these things are done subconsciously, known as my iniquities. But it can also purposefully be done. It's just human for us to do that.
Many of this stems from early scars from childhood, and teen years as well. Subliminal messages given to young women and men to live up to a certain image or standard, do certain activities, or be talented in certain hobbies or skills.
What I am finding is that it is all relative. It is all, it's not a game, or about "falling into sin" or making the "wrong" choice. It is, however, fulfillment, happiness, joy, and having a heart for God. It is very interesting how we tend to all have an image of God, I do not believe there is a wrong image of who God is, but I do believe God is a lot different than we can imagine to be.
Friday, June 14, 2013
You Are Worthy
I woke up on a beach. It wasn't hot, nor was it cold and palm trees were all over. Nearby, some kids were splashing in the clear blue waves, and laughing. Suddenly they vanished. I saw a glass goblet next to me, so I decided to grab it, and get a drink. The goblet had my initials etched into the fine glass in a cursive victorian font. I waded into the refreshing water, and dipped the goblet in, as I brought it back up, the water became an orange color. I took a risk, and drank. It was cold, pure juice that tasted of mangoes, pineapples, and oranges. My thirst was quenched, and I got some more to take along, as I walked back to sit and gaze at the horizon.
I smelled a sweet, soft perfume, and looked over, and there she was... a young woman, smiling at me. Her eyes danced as she laughed, maybe amused at my bewildered gaze. As she laughed, her hair changed from brunette, to blonde, to black and auburn as the wind and sun caressed it. She wore a white beach dress. Brushing the hair from her eyes, she spoke, "I'm lady Wisdom. I am with you wherever you go, charting your course before you. I know your thoughts, but I also know your heart. I use discernment to rewire your thoughts to align with your heart. That juice you drank, was from the fruits in which God has harvested through you. The fruits of the Spirit, in which you have inherited, developed, and strengthened in your life. The sea, was the vast love of God, you dipped into."
Bewildered, I looked down, feeling pain from my past choices, attitudes, and the way I treated some people. She continued, "Gordon, you are worthy... you are worthy, Gordon... you are worthy." She repeated this, and I looked into her eyes, and said, "No, no I am NOT." She leaned into me, and kissed me, whispered into my ear, "Yes, yes you are." She then stood up, wings spread out from her dress, and mist came at me, she laughed and said "Follow me, do you want to feel God's love? This is how He feels about you." Water rushed over me, and the neuro-science articles I have read would justify my feelings from a release of endorphins, dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin, yet I know this was spiritual. Lifting my arms, I shot up out of the water, 20, 50, 100 ft. I flew, and she said "Follow me, find your vessel, and sail!" Boats were everywhere, but somehow I knew which one mine was. It was about 52 ft. with a cabin. It was white, with teak trim, on the back in dark green, cursive font it read Jer. 29:11. I got lower, pulled myself down from the wheel, and as I landed, I saw a big screen. I wondered where the girl was, and on the screen appeared the girl. I wondered where I should sail, and Jamaica came onto the screen. I noticed a pattern, so I then thought of a giraffe, and the funny animal came onto the screen.
She then touched me, and said "That's your mind. As you sail, we will navigate through your mind, as I guide your thoughts and we will both follow your heart, which is here..." She showed me a tablet, with categories, under one file which read "God" It was like an IPAD, but instead of the Apple logo, it was my initials. She grabbed a pen, and started writing... I felt that strange good feeling again, so I laid down. Hebrew words flooded my mind, she said "God told me to write His laws, love, and spirit into your heart. It will dwell in you forever and will grow and widen the seas in which we will sail. You'll enjoy the juice from your fruits, you will reap what your heart has sown for eternity." Eyes closed, I heard the sails raise, flapping in the wind. I immediately felt us rocking and cutting through the water at a good speed. I did not care who was sailing, I trusted the wind, I loved the boat, and I knew I was not alone.
Thoughts and memories rushed through my head, and I heard her reacting both to the good and bad, from monitoring the screens. Some things vanished, others magnified, I couldn't explain what was happening, but I felt dizzy. It was like a brain massage.
Then, music filled the air, the same music in my mind, and I thought "God!" And audibly, the words were in the atmosphere. So I said "pussycat", and sure enough...
As we sailed onward, she said "Sail on, love, your boat has come, God will bless you beyond your wildest dreams, because you are worthy..."
I smelled a sweet, soft perfume, and looked over, and there she was... a young woman, smiling at me. Her eyes danced as she laughed, maybe amused at my bewildered gaze. As she laughed, her hair changed from brunette, to blonde, to black and auburn as the wind and sun caressed it. She wore a white beach dress. Brushing the hair from her eyes, she spoke, "I'm lady Wisdom. I am with you wherever you go, charting your course before you. I know your thoughts, but I also know your heart. I use discernment to rewire your thoughts to align with your heart. That juice you drank, was from the fruits in which God has harvested through you. The fruits of the Spirit, in which you have inherited, developed, and strengthened in your life. The sea, was the vast love of God, you dipped into."
Bewildered, I looked down, feeling pain from my past choices, attitudes, and the way I treated some people. She continued, "Gordon, you are worthy... you are worthy, Gordon... you are worthy." She repeated this, and I looked into her eyes, and said, "No, no I am NOT." She leaned into me, and kissed me, whispered into my ear, "Yes, yes you are." She then stood up, wings spread out from her dress, and mist came at me, she laughed and said "Follow me, do you want to feel God's love? This is how He feels about you." Water rushed over me, and the neuro-science articles I have read would justify my feelings from a release of endorphins, dopamine, oxytocin, and serotonin, yet I know this was spiritual. Lifting my arms, I shot up out of the water, 20, 50, 100 ft. I flew, and she said "Follow me, find your vessel, and sail!" Boats were everywhere, but somehow I knew which one mine was. It was about 52 ft. with a cabin. It was white, with teak trim, on the back in dark green, cursive font it read Jer. 29:11. I got lower, pulled myself down from the wheel, and as I landed, I saw a big screen. I wondered where the girl was, and on the screen appeared the girl. I wondered where I should sail, and Jamaica came onto the screen. I noticed a pattern, so I then thought of a giraffe, and the funny animal came onto the screen.
She then touched me, and said "That's your mind. As you sail, we will navigate through your mind, as I guide your thoughts and we will both follow your heart, which is here..." She showed me a tablet, with categories, under one file which read "God" It was like an IPAD, but instead of the Apple logo, it was my initials. She grabbed a pen, and started writing... I felt that strange good feeling again, so I laid down. Hebrew words flooded my mind, she said "God told me to write His laws, love, and spirit into your heart. It will dwell in you forever and will grow and widen the seas in which we will sail. You'll enjoy the juice from your fruits, you will reap what your heart has sown for eternity." Eyes closed, I heard the sails raise, flapping in the wind. I immediately felt us rocking and cutting through the water at a good speed. I did not care who was sailing, I trusted the wind, I loved the boat, and I knew I was not alone.
Thoughts and memories rushed through my head, and I heard her reacting both to the good and bad, from monitoring the screens. Some things vanished, others magnified, I couldn't explain what was happening, but I felt dizzy. It was like a brain massage.
Then, music filled the air, the same music in my mind, and I thought "God!" And audibly, the words were in the atmosphere. So I said "pussycat", and sure enough...
As we sailed onward, she said "Sail on, love, your boat has come, God will bless you beyond your wildest dreams, because you are worthy..."
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Universal Language of Music
The nations have become so divided by politics, economic status, lifestyles, religion, language barriers, and nationalistic ideologies. I have discovered there is one painless force that will break all of those strongholds, reaching into our most spiritual and human part of us- the heart. That force is music. Music in itself is a universal language, we all understand. No words necessary. It's a God-given Heavenly way to heal, connect, uplift, and bring a certain form of ecstasy into our world. If lyrics are involved, a message can be spread as well. Therefore, music can also be a weapon. (After all, it is universal). If people are open to listening to the message of the lyrics, and feeling what the melody says, the combination could be beyond words. What images does it bring to the mind's eye? Lyrics can create a movie or story, while the melody a feeling. However, words aren't always needed to do this, in order for the song to speak in a manner in which you can understand. Let your heart translate the music and speak to you. Your heart will not lead you astray if you are wise about it.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Romance Through Divine Love
From the time when we are 13, us guys like her cute laugh, and she annoys the crap out of us, yet deep down we like her... She loves how he pokes at her, and just makes her heart beat quicker. Yet she is so annoyed by him, deep down she likes him. Fast forward to high school, between 15-18... many discount this age as being "too young to love" And that nobody knows what "love" is. Let me just say... from the moment of birth, everyone knows what love is. There are stages of love. The new love, is the infatuation/honeymoon love, in which EVERYONE experiences. Yet we all deny it rolling our eyes, as if it is something we are to be ashamed of. The love a young couple feels, is real... very real, and very strong. Emotions raging, hormones peaking, yes, you feel it, and you're in love. What young people DON'T know, is MANAGING love... they start to see their quirks, they get into conflict, they don't know how to handle it, they get bored and cheat or break up... that is what speaks to everyone around as to how they are "so young"... love will come anytime you let it. Managing love... is up to you, and the divine power of God to be your glue.
I'm going to go through some subjects that many do not talk about. It may seem 'wrong'... but life is nothing but transparent, and God know everything about our hearts, why hide and not discuss this stuff?
There are many forms of love, from brotherly/sisterly love, emotional, maternal/paternal love, spiritual love, and a love of... beer or chocolate, or beaches. We are attracted to things, that have something good and positive to offer to us, helping us not just survive, but thrive and enjoy. In turn, we give back. You 'love' the beach? You don't litter, you support and organization that preserves manatees or beaches. You 'love' chocolate? Invest in the market- buy some candy bars! You 'love' beer? Support your favorite beer company and drink responsibly (in fact using it responsibly is the greatest gift you could give to their company). Spiritual love, you devote yourself to the higher power, be it Jesus (for me), or whatever else. Children and parents- kids, obey, and never stop telling your parents you love them, and hug them. Same with parents to kids. Treat them gently, firmly, and compassionately. Friends, well,be a friend whom understands and helps one another. Jokes with each other, just thrives and goes on adventures.
In the beginning, God created Eve to be a mate for Adam... There are places where it says biblically it is not good for man to be alone. Also, a man whom finds a wife, finds a great thing a gift from God. Also, men, treat your wives as Christ loves his creation, his people... God's people... treat her with adoration, kindness, respect, and affection, no matter what.
It is an equal thing. Culturally the man is no longer always the bread winner, nor does the woman always cook and clean... we have become a team, complimenting our strengths, living in our situations, and growing our weaknesses. In every relationship it is 110/110... I give my all to please her, while she would do the same... we know what each other, likes, and needs... so, through our love, we express and but those into actions, words, and affections.
By loving your mate, you are loving God... God send you guys, and started this love in your hearts for a reason... God smiles, approvingly everytime you two kiss. Everytime you two cuddle. Everytime you two say "I love you..." God knows, He has done a good thing. You experience the divine love of God through the other person romantically...
Love is meant to heal. Love is meant to renew. Love is meant to inspire.
Here are some quotes by an inspiring individual from India, named Deepak Chopra:
"Ecstasy is the release of individuality bade into wholeness. Whatever brings you closer to wholeness, brings you closer to ecstasy."
"See your beloved as a mirror of your higher self."
"Surrender to love as your guiding force. A single point in the heart can expand to liberate the world...."
"You are a unique path created between you and your beloved"
Rumi- "My soul glowed from the fire of your fire. Your world was a whispering river of my heart..."
"A Liberated soul is a citizen of the universe..."
"Sexual union initiates DIVINE creation. What you express through your passion is God's love for you."
"Inspiration is that state in which mind and heart are connected."
"Any desire to grow is following the flow of love."
"Love is everywhere, but in some places it is blocked by fear."
"When you blame of criticize others, you are avoiding some truth about yourself."
"If you create any open space within yourself, love will fill it."
"The highest expression of love is creativity"
"When sex (or intimacy) is fully loving, you experience the divine through your partner"
"Sexual/intimate love energized by absolute love, is ecstasy."
"Love doesn't need a reason, it speaks from the irrational wisdom of the heart."
"A heart that has learned to trust, can be at rest in the world."
"To love and be loved is the most natural expression of our being."
So, sexual intimacy, is a divine experience, in which God is experienced through your love for each other. The blissful state of ecstasy through eachother, is simply a gift God gave humanity, and smiles on. I believe there are places only a man and woman can go, nobody else can go but them. Each couple has a different place, because they have different souls, hearts, and levels of intimacy. Sure, it is a spiritual thing, but there are of course many other times in which you can get more... risque or naughty with it- which again is natural state of humanity. It was designed for spiritual union, as well as a pleasurable activity, all because you love each other.
It has been said, that hugging often, creates longer relationships, more likely to end up in marriage, and LAST... The same goes with kissing. Kiss each other A LOT! And passionately. Kissing has chemicals, that send off positive chemicals to the brain, alleviating depression, anxiety, and increases dopamine, oxytocin, and better performance in life, at work, and in the home. Cuddling, creates a bond, that makes you both secure and safe. I will post another on the stages of marriage, and why so many end in divorce. Divorce is preventable...
When two people adore each others' beings, you end up uniting, as 2 flesh become one, spiritually you unite as well, you connect in such a deep level... you feel the ecstasy, the blissful state of mind, you never find anywhere else... It's a powerful state, love is. Such a beautiful thing. The world today, has corrupted it, and degraded it, dumbed it down, and turned it into things it is not. For me, I know how to do a couple things well... 1. Write and play music. 2. LOVE the girl to be wife I will be with. As well as other friends and family. I'm a lover, not a fighter.
Peace><>
I'm going to go through some subjects that many do not talk about. It may seem 'wrong'... but life is nothing but transparent, and God know everything about our hearts, why hide and not discuss this stuff?
There are many forms of love, from brotherly/sisterly love, emotional, maternal/paternal love, spiritual love, and a love of... beer or chocolate, or beaches. We are attracted to things, that have something good and positive to offer to us, helping us not just survive, but thrive and enjoy. In turn, we give back. You 'love' the beach? You don't litter, you support and organization that preserves manatees or beaches. You 'love' chocolate? Invest in the market- buy some candy bars! You 'love' beer? Support your favorite beer company and drink responsibly (in fact using it responsibly is the greatest gift you could give to their company). Spiritual love, you devote yourself to the higher power, be it Jesus (for me), or whatever else. Children and parents- kids, obey, and never stop telling your parents you love them, and hug them. Same with parents to kids. Treat them gently, firmly, and compassionately. Friends, well,be a friend whom understands and helps one another. Jokes with each other, just thrives and goes on adventures.
In the beginning, God created Eve to be a mate for Adam... There are places where it says biblically it is not good for man to be alone. Also, a man whom finds a wife, finds a great thing a gift from God. Also, men, treat your wives as Christ loves his creation, his people... God's people... treat her with adoration, kindness, respect, and affection, no matter what.
It is an equal thing. Culturally the man is no longer always the bread winner, nor does the woman always cook and clean... we have become a team, complimenting our strengths, living in our situations, and growing our weaknesses. In every relationship it is 110/110... I give my all to please her, while she would do the same... we know what each other, likes, and needs... so, through our love, we express and but those into actions, words, and affections.
By loving your mate, you are loving God... God send you guys, and started this love in your hearts for a reason... God smiles, approvingly everytime you two kiss. Everytime you two cuddle. Everytime you two say "I love you..." God knows, He has done a good thing. You experience the divine love of God through the other person romantically...
Love is meant to heal. Love is meant to renew. Love is meant to inspire.
Here are some quotes by an inspiring individual from India, named Deepak Chopra:
"Ecstasy is the release of individuality bade into wholeness. Whatever brings you closer to wholeness, brings you closer to ecstasy."
"See your beloved as a mirror of your higher self."
"Surrender to love as your guiding force. A single point in the heart can expand to liberate the world...."
"You are a unique path created between you and your beloved"
Rumi- "My soul glowed from the fire of your fire. Your world was a whispering river of my heart..."
"A Liberated soul is a citizen of the universe..."
"Sexual union initiates DIVINE creation. What you express through your passion is God's love for you."
"Inspiration is that state in which mind and heart are connected."
"Any desire to grow is following the flow of love."
"Love is everywhere, but in some places it is blocked by fear."
"When you blame of criticize others, you are avoiding some truth about yourself."
"If you create any open space within yourself, love will fill it."
"The highest expression of love is creativity"
"When sex (or intimacy) is fully loving, you experience the divine through your partner"
"Sexual/intimate love energized by absolute love, is ecstasy."
"Love doesn't need a reason, it speaks from the irrational wisdom of the heart."
"A heart that has learned to trust, can be at rest in the world."
"To love and be loved is the most natural expression of our being."
So, sexual intimacy, is a divine experience, in which God is experienced through your love for each other. The blissful state of ecstasy through eachother, is simply a gift God gave humanity, and smiles on. I believe there are places only a man and woman can go, nobody else can go but them. Each couple has a different place, because they have different souls, hearts, and levels of intimacy. Sure, it is a spiritual thing, but there are of course many other times in which you can get more... risque or naughty with it- which again is natural state of humanity. It was designed for spiritual union, as well as a pleasurable activity, all because you love each other.
It has been said, that hugging often, creates longer relationships, more likely to end up in marriage, and LAST... The same goes with kissing. Kiss each other A LOT! And passionately. Kissing has chemicals, that send off positive chemicals to the brain, alleviating depression, anxiety, and increases dopamine, oxytocin, and better performance in life, at work, and in the home. Cuddling, creates a bond, that makes you both secure and safe. I will post another on the stages of marriage, and why so many end in divorce. Divorce is preventable...
When two people adore each others' beings, you end up uniting, as 2 flesh become one, spiritually you unite as well, you connect in such a deep level... you feel the ecstasy, the blissful state of mind, you never find anywhere else... It's a powerful state, love is. Such a beautiful thing. The world today, has corrupted it, and degraded it, dumbed it down, and turned it into things it is not. For me, I know how to do a couple things well... 1. Write and play music. 2. LOVE the girl to be wife I will be with. As well as other friends and family. I'm a lover, not a fighter.
Peace><>
Saturday, January 26, 2013
My Values
These are my
values in which I read about, and picked. I will write an excerpt on
them all.
Creativity:
To expand our potential, and go beyond the horizon.
Fairness:
We all deserve to have our hearts' desires.
Faith:
If you're an atheist, you have faith that there is no God. If
you're spiritual, you have faith in a higher power, thus faith is
inevitable.
Intimacy:
Humanity was designed for this from the beginning with Adam and Eve, for man and woman to be fruitful
and multiply, and to have that other half, and experience real
intimacy with somebody.
Love: From romance to brotherly/sisterly love, to universal love, it is essential, and is something we need, in fact we need every form of love to thrive.
Honesty:
Why lie? It destroys the world and comes back to haunt us.
Inspiration:
Desire to inspire!
Kindness:
Genuine kindness does wonders.
Spirituality:
Inspired by God Himself!
Openness:
Transparency is key in any relationship.
Passion:
This ignites flames in love, inspiration, creativity, work,
everything. Many times children are born due to this value :)
Warmth:
Better than cold...
Happiness:
We ALL deserve this, in any point. Whatever it is, wherever we may
find it.
Loyalty:
From a Cubs fan, to marriage, and relationships, to doing business
with a trusted, and good company, loyalty is essential and pays off
dividends thousandfold eventually.
Saturday, December 8, 2012
When Do Dreams Manifest Into Reality?
The world has become a cold place to live. Leaves fell, flowers died, grass is dormant, and now we wait for what is to come. Last time I posted, the life was just starting, the season began. Dreams were big, and hot from the bright sun that woke me up in the stuffy apartment in Chicago, ready to live another 115* F day. It got so hot up there earlier this summer!
When I dream, I dream big. I either want to go big, or not go at all. In some ways this can be good. In other ways, not so much. Because I get let down by my own personal expectations for myself, to be in places that, I simply, cannot get to when and how I want to. I have been told that I am "unrealistic" and dream too much, while I have also been told, I am too limiting on myself. Which is it? And which direction do I go? The Law Of Attraction is all about imagining your wildest dreams, and they will become a reality. That has not happened.
I packed my car, and moved last minute to Muncie, no job, and a little money. Thanks to some amazing friends helping me out, I was able to be there for awhile and figure things out. Met a great girl, we talked, and had a great connection, then due to a series of unfortunate events, some my own fault, I just had to come back. Things with the girl just wasn't realistic, and we just weren't as compatible as initially imagined. Still, in October, no job, etc. Looking at other friends from college, they have what I call "big boy" or "big girl" jobs. Some in downtown Chicago. I just got a job bagging groceries, and I am grateful to put gas in the car, with my degree. And it's very discouraging. The expectations, the dreams, the wants, seem to be coming to others. It just makes me think abut things. Yes, some mistakes I have made, and learned from. Some is out of my control. Now I will go into some things, in which I believe is pretty universal in humanity.
Success/Wealth: I've eaten with, talked to, hugged, and built relationships with homeless people whom haven't showered in weeks, I've been in the neighborhoods in Chicago at 10 pm, getting chicken from my favorite chicken joint, places many wouldn't even go into in the bright of day, I met people there, and we built a connection. Once when Dunkin' Donuts was closing, I met a worker behind the store, and took a huge trash bag of doughnuts and muffins, they'd otherwise throw away. Walking down the dark alley, to share with my dorm mates, I heard a voice call out from the shadows. Two homeless people, one in a wheelchair whom didn't speak well, must have had a stroke. It was February. We ate and talked, and we always remembered each other. I've also had a knife drawn out on me, held up to me, and I ended up talking myself out of it, and ways were parted.
I've also been inside million dollar homes, met big name community leaders in the city, driven a Mercedes a few times, sailed in Maine, had drinks in Chicago's most expensive hotel in a big room with live jazz (the drinks were glasses of ice water- but still)... I've been places and seen things, some I could show you and take you, others I wouldn't. Some people shouldn't see some of those things that go on.
I have big dreams. Yes, a nice home, preferably in Florida, a nice car- I have a nice car, but I am talking about the European luxury makes, maybe a boat one day, and the ability to travel.
Just seems hard to imagine pushing carts into the store at this point, how can it all be possible? I look at people, they seem to have it all together. They have house, cars, family, vacation home, diversified investment portfolios...they will tell you "Noooo I don't have it all together..." They must be doing something right, if they can have this and sustain themselves...
I will say this... if I DO become successful to the point of wealthiness, some peoples' worlds are going to get rocked in a good way! Businesses will be brought back, churches started, communities revitalized, dear friends will be helped, people in Africa without good water, will experience what good water is like. Of course my family and I will be taken care of, but the world and society will be blessed big time.
Love: I believe, no matter who you are... where you are in life, we ALL deserve love. Not love as in the universal love- yes we deserve that- that's a given in my book. I am talking about significant other love. In the Bible, there are many good stories. One of the first ones, was about Adam and Eve... Adam started work, he named all the creatures, then was blessed with Eve... they were fruitful and multiplied... what an amazing gift, an amazing experience. Something I very much hope I am blessed with. Eventually a family- with lil kids. It's a beautiful thing that- just seems amazing. No, it won't be perfect, but it is beautiful. The good, the bad, the hard, the easy. It's something I believe humans were designed to experience.
I am waiting, and I feel like I have waited quite some time now. Things have yet to fall into place. I feel like where I am now, is temporary. I just have no idea what is to come. No, I do not feel on top of the world. I fight to stay happy, it's a minute by minute thing in which I fight to keep going with an inner smile. I am not ungrateful. By no means am I ungrateful. I just keep feeling like there is more, and it is not even close to what it ought to be.
Life after college is not what I imagined. It may never be. I have no idea right now. Love, and success are all things we want. I wish there was a detailed description of how to get there. What moves to make, who to talk to, etc. Yes, wealth is great, I could be the richest guy in the world, and I will still go to my favorite chicken joint in Chicago, buyin a 2 piece meal fried hard for the brother who's broke, they say money changes people. It will give me an opportunity to not only have fun, but help people out better... so many times I wish I had it in order to help a friend.
This is an update on things. I am in expectation for at least some of these good things to manifest into reality. Until then, I wake up, and I do my thing. I hope to meet new friends to hang out with after moving back here, etc. We shall see. Love and financial peace, I hope will happen sooner than later. One can dream!
When I dream, I dream big. I either want to go big, or not go at all. In some ways this can be good. In other ways, not so much. Because I get let down by my own personal expectations for myself, to be in places that, I simply, cannot get to when and how I want to. I have been told that I am "unrealistic" and dream too much, while I have also been told, I am too limiting on myself. Which is it? And which direction do I go? The Law Of Attraction is all about imagining your wildest dreams, and they will become a reality. That has not happened.
I packed my car, and moved last minute to Muncie, no job, and a little money. Thanks to some amazing friends helping me out, I was able to be there for awhile and figure things out. Met a great girl, we talked, and had a great connection, then due to a series of unfortunate events, some my own fault, I just had to come back. Things with the girl just wasn't realistic, and we just weren't as compatible as initially imagined. Still, in October, no job, etc. Looking at other friends from college, they have what I call "big boy" or "big girl" jobs. Some in downtown Chicago. I just got a job bagging groceries, and I am grateful to put gas in the car, with my degree. And it's very discouraging. The expectations, the dreams, the wants, seem to be coming to others. It just makes me think abut things. Yes, some mistakes I have made, and learned from. Some is out of my control. Now I will go into some things, in which I believe is pretty universal in humanity.
Success/Wealth: I've eaten with, talked to, hugged, and built relationships with homeless people whom haven't showered in weeks, I've been in the neighborhoods in Chicago at 10 pm, getting chicken from my favorite chicken joint, places many wouldn't even go into in the bright of day, I met people there, and we built a connection. Once when Dunkin' Donuts was closing, I met a worker behind the store, and took a huge trash bag of doughnuts and muffins, they'd otherwise throw away. Walking down the dark alley, to share with my dorm mates, I heard a voice call out from the shadows. Two homeless people, one in a wheelchair whom didn't speak well, must have had a stroke. It was February. We ate and talked, and we always remembered each other. I've also had a knife drawn out on me, held up to me, and I ended up talking myself out of it, and ways were parted.
I've also been inside million dollar homes, met big name community leaders in the city, driven a Mercedes a few times, sailed in Maine, had drinks in Chicago's most expensive hotel in a big room with live jazz (the drinks were glasses of ice water- but still)... I've been places and seen things, some I could show you and take you, others I wouldn't. Some people shouldn't see some of those things that go on.
I have big dreams. Yes, a nice home, preferably in Florida, a nice car- I have a nice car, but I am talking about the European luxury makes, maybe a boat one day, and the ability to travel.
Just seems hard to imagine pushing carts into the store at this point, how can it all be possible? I look at people, they seem to have it all together. They have house, cars, family, vacation home, diversified investment portfolios...they will tell you "Noooo I don't have it all together..." They must be doing something right, if they can have this and sustain themselves...
I will say this... if I DO become successful to the point of wealthiness, some peoples' worlds are going to get rocked in a good way! Businesses will be brought back, churches started, communities revitalized, dear friends will be helped, people in Africa without good water, will experience what good water is like. Of course my family and I will be taken care of, but the world and society will be blessed big time.
Love: I believe, no matter who you are... where you are in life, we ALL deserve love. Not love as in the universal love- yes we deserve that- that's a given in my book. I am talking about significant other love. In the Bible, there are many good stories. One of the first ones, was about Adam and Eve... Adam started work, he named all the creatures, then was blessed with Eve... they were fruitful and multiplied... what an amazing gift, an amazing experience. Something I very much hope I am blessed with. Eventually a family- with lil kids. It's a beautiful thing that- just seems amazing. No, it won't be perfect, but it is beautiful. The good, the bad, the hard, the easy. It's something I believe humans were designed to experience.
I am waiting, and I feel like I have waited quite some time now. Things have yet to fall into place. I feel like where I am now, is temporary. I just have no idea what is to come. No, I do not feel on top of the world. I fight to stay happy, it's a minute by minute thing in which I fight to keep going with an inner smile. I am not ungrateful. By no means am I ungrateful. I just keep feeling like there is more, and it is not even close to what it ought to be.
Life after college is not what I imagined. It may never be. I have no idea right now. Love, and success are all things we want. I wish there was a detailed description of how to get there. What moves to make, who to talk to, etc. Yes, wealth is great, I could be the richest guy in the world, and I will still go to my favorite chicken joint in Chicago, buyin a 2 piece meal fried hard for the brother who's broke, they say money changes people. It will give me an opportunity to not only have fun, but help people out better... so many times I wish I had it in order to help a friend.
This is an update on things. I am in expectation for at least some of these good things to manifest into reality. Until then, I wake up, and I do my thing. I hope to meet new friends to hang out with after moving back here, etc. We shall see. Love and financial peace, I hope will happen sooner than later. One can dream!
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